I read, with great difficulty, Soul of Autism by William Stillman about four months ago. The book itself is not a tough read, it’s the subject matter.
Essentially, the book is about the connection some autistics have with the Divine, spirits and spirituality. As a practicing Christian, I found it hard to read on one hand and fascinating on the other. He interviews families whose child has a profound relationship with a dead grandparent they have never met. Or who seem to have a spiritual connection without regard for “religion”.
So, why is my son kinda freakin’ me out?
At the supper table, he asked a question like “how come he died?”, looking at me, but past me. So, I said, “who died, Nathan?”
He looks at me and says “I wasn’t talking to you.”
Weird, right, but not freaky.
Thursday morning, I was in the basement thinking “don’t forget the kids probiotics in the fridge”. I needed to get them packed in a bag to go to Grandma’s.
I wasn’t back upstairs 20 seconds and Nathan was in the fridge, grabbing the probiotics saying “don’t forget to pack these”. I never said anything about vitamins or supplements to him. I had packed those the night before & he was in bed. I don’t think he even knew what bag they were in. Also, he wasn’t concerned about the rest of the vitamins, just the probiotics.
This, combined with the incident the night before, freaked me out. Not in a bad way entirely, just got me wondering, what if? What if he does see spirits or has some amount of ESP? What could that mean for him and how do we help him to make sense of this?
Nathan is a really perceptive child. He was a baby that cried (and still does) if someone else cried. He seems to know who is being genuine and who’s just “in it for the money”. He & I do share a very close bond as well, probably because he was non-verbal for so long. So, it’s not such a stretch to think he might be more in contact with God than the average person.
I’d be interested to hear if you’ve seen this at your house.