Our church celebrates Christian New Year’s Eve on the Saturday before the first Sunday of Advent. It’s a big potluck party and we try to go every year. (I missed it this year, boo hoo) I like the concept of a New Year for Christmas because Christmas has always felt like a new beginning for me.
I’ve had a habit, since I left home, of giving God another “try” at Christmas. I often went back to church through the Advent season, sometimes managing to see all 5 candles lit, sometimes 3. It wasn’t about the tree, the carols or the season in general. It was about trying to reconnect with the faith I had growing up.
As an adult, I had to learn faith all over again. I was brought up in a church that not only invites us to question but essentially demands it in order for growth. The problem was, I got stuck at questionning, not realizing that the best place to find answers was inside the church, not outside. Notice though, I said “answers” not the answer. There is a profound difference.
I started out looking for The Answer. I think this is pretty common in my generation, so desperately looking for spirituality, but not wanting to be religious. For me, I find the answers in the Christian church. They aren’t easy ones and I still have questions.
In this season of Advent, a season of getting ready, I have tried to find ways to be more open and accepting of God in my life. I find that my days are coloured in a different way and that I’ve been able to see, for the first time, how crazy I’ve made my own life.
Advent gives us a chance to take time away from the busy-ness of life and find the peace of God. For the Fourth Sunday of Advent, I wish you that peace also.